MoJo

Hello, have you seen my MoJo?  I seem to have misplaced it...  I've noticed that I seem to be strung a little tight.  Quite frankly I wouldn't care except it's messing up my world.  It makes both the kids I work with and my animals a little, well, squirrelly.  I knew I was off, but yesterday it became clear just how off. 

My students were wild, so I tried to do a relaxation exercise with them.  It was a progressive activity where you lie down and clench and release muscles.  Once the whole body is "relaxed" we then move on to blowing out our biggest worry and replacing it with a picture of the best place in the world.  The entire time we did this as I coached the kids through, my body radiated tension.  I was once the Queen of Zen.  And I want it back!  I'm not sure how I've progressed to being so wound up but it's imperative I loosen up.  I find myself filled with worry.  Worry about random things, (What if it rains while I'm at work and the dog pens get muddy - then the dogs are sitting in mud all day!!!), to things that matter (How much is that vet bill going to be??). 

It's really messing up my animal MoJo.  Once upon a time I was able to "whisper" animals in.  I was the person they gravitated towards - always.  The wildest horse would settle by me.  The abused dog would relax and lean into my hand.  But my babies - my treasured little dogs are orbiting around me like I'm the wrong end of a magnet.  This tells me something. 

I have around 2 weeks of work left.  I have about 5 more high stress days before the world once again gets fun.  Once this passes (let's be realistic here, I know I'm not going to be able to chillax in the pressure cooker I'm currently in), I plan to have some Zen time.  I want the old me back.  The carefree, relaxed and intuitive person.  One thing I want to do is to just "hang" with the dogs.  Just have them with me while I smell the roses.  With summer looming, I'm looking forward to once again picking up some Yoga classes, to consistently run, ride and enjoy my horse.  Things that help me achieve that sense of peace and inner balance.