Letting Go

Sometimes it's really hard to let go.  To let go of wants and needs.  To let go of dreams and hopes.  To let go of plans and goals.  To just be.  To just live in the moment.  I've come to the conclusion that my goals and dreams were getting in the way of my reality.  And really messing up my mojo.  Is it really necessary to be a superstar to be happy?  Because working towards being an (attempted) superstar was making me pretty unhappy.  I felt dragged down and caged.

I've made a very conscious decision to let go.  To work very, very hard at being happy and living in the moment.  To not worry about what will happen in the future.  Because I want to enjoy my dogs and animals again.  I want to have fun.  Does it really matter if Reba's ready to run ProNovice by the end of summer?  Nope, not really.  And by not setting deadlines or goals I'm able to enjoy her for who and what she is.  Does it really matter if Diva and Ryder make a good showing in Nursery next year?  Or are ready to compete by Northlands in the fall?  Nope, not really.  I had been feeling so much pressure to decide which dogs I would keep.  If I should spay/neuter or leave intact.  When to start training.  And the list went on...

I've given myself permission to just hang out with my dogs this summer.  To take them places and work with them.  But not care if they're ready for "public" on any set timeline.  Who cares?  I don't.  And I feel GREAT about this.  I had FUN again with them.  They were HAPPIER around me.  Hmmmm..... something to think about..